EVERYONE READ THIS (Seriously read it)

[D1g1tal V3n0m]

Alright this will be a long post but bear with me. I want all you fellow JDMU members to read this. I mean actually read this as it might help alot of you.

Ok here goes...

Look I have been a member and been treated fairly good and even been made into a mod. But the thing is this...

I get on JDMU and I swear it feels like no one here likes me. Maybe it is me and my self induced paranoia or something but I mean it. I sit here and it feels like no one is reading my posts or that people are just like that kid is dumb or something. I don't know why I feel this way. I just do. I mean it feels like some of you hate me and that you don't believe me. I swear that that is how I feel sometimes. I mean I love this place and would not give it up ever. I just feel like I get on here and that no one really cares what I have to say and that they don't read it. I don't know if I am right or not.

The fact is I know a couple others who feel this way not just me. You know why CSi is such a crap hole now? Because of all the drama that happens there. The thing is that CSi had its cliques and shit like that. When you get there it makes you feel like you want to leave. I mean you would go there and some would like you and others would hate you and flame you. Others didn't even read your post. I mean I don't want this place to end up like CSi not at all.

The thing is this. I come on here to get away from everyday life and I see this place as my second home. Maybe this seems a bit hypocritical. I don't know. But I want to get this out in the open so that maybe others will come forth and not hide how they feel or something.

The thing is I have talked to alot of you but the thing about me is that I am paranoid about everything. I kind of have a anxiety disorder I think. But I mean sometimes it seriously feels like no one here notices me.

I have some friends who I talk to here and on AIM quite a bit. It is just that sometimes it seems like you guys are one big happy family and I am not allowed. Kind of like no new members. I know that I have not provided pics and stuff to support what I have told you guys but oh well. I will when I can you know. I am just fed up with hiding this feeling and I want to get it out in the open. I am not trying to stir anything up or do anything. I am TRYING to help this site not end up like all the others.

Maybe what I am saying makes sense and maybe it doesn't I don't know. I am great with feelings and emotions and describing them but for some odd reason I can't get this out as well. I hope that this makes sense and will help.

It is just basically this.....

I sometimes feel so unwanted here and such. I want you to tell me what you guys think about what I have just said and if you feel the same then speak up. This is kind of a way to maybe help JDMU. It isn't any certain member that I have anything with or that makes me feel this way. I just feel it for some reason.

I want you to tell me what you think on this and everything so that we can help stop this. If I am the only one so be it but I know for a fact that I am not and I not only want to help myself but everyone else that feels the way I do.

In conclusion basically... This is the greatest board that I have found anywhere. But this is the only board where I get this feeling sometimes besides CSi where I mainly just used it for the Audio Forum. I hop that this helps us one and all.


Thanks for your time and cooperation please feel free to put in your :2:

Peace,
Brandon

[Edited on 11-17-2002 by D1g1tal V3n0m]

[hondacivicchic99]

I still love you no matter what you think!!!
But im sure you already know that..

[pogiputi]

im not sure what to tell you bro...I dont have beef with you at all....I am an equal opportunity post whore...so...im not sure what to tell you, but I dont have problems with any of the members on here.....

just put a big on your face, go get some and everything will be alrighty!!!!:thumb2:

[LilLowEK]

AMEN!


I feel the same Brandon. Like we talked about on AIM, it seems like you pretty much described the whole situation well. I will put in my :2: as well though.


Yes, I was a former CSi'er. Yes, I got banned from CSi due to stupid shit that was completly pointless. I had the finger pointed at me for shit that had not relation to me or my post on that site. I sat back and took the bullshit and held my own. Reason behind that, is I was friends w/ a number of people on it. And those people supported me and stood up for what they believed in. *Thanks, you know who you are.* But yea, After I put up w/ all that shit to try to "better" CSi someone got a boner stuck in their ass and took it out on me and Brandon. Its kinda weird how our bannings were so close together and from the same person. Whatever, no big deal. Point it, yes I was banned, BUT! But, I got all the IP addys that can be produced from my ISP unblocked and I am now able to go to CSi anytime I want. No problem. Did I go back? Of course not. I found JDMU. The first post I made here It was like I walked into a door at a strange party and people greated me and was given a smoke and a beer and a lady under each arm.





My first post here on JDMU <~~~Linkie to first post I ever made on JDMU, PLEASE READ and notice how every one is so greatful and friendly, not to mention showing interest.


Anyone see anything diff from that post to the way things have been going?





I was so happy that people did not flame me, and was glad to see a new member. I started as a n00b, and IMO am still a n00b. Yea, it might say Moderator under my name, but I still have alot to learn about every one of you. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I'm a mod and I love to be here to help each and every one of you out in any way possible. I am like Brandon, I feel this as a 2nd home on the internet. I'm constantly on the boards and looking around and at almost every new post made. I want to get a better understanding of the way things work here, and how people react to certain post and situations. Everyone seems great here! But for the past 3-5 days now I feel also that I am not wanted here. Its not that lack of attention bothers me at all, I just want to know if something is going on that perhaps I have no clue of. Everyone here that has seen my post should know I don't care if someone corrects me, or differs w/ what I say. *Andy and I found that out.* But the thing is, we all came out of it w/ an "I'm sorry bro." or something of that nature. Like others care for other peoples feelings here. It just doesn't seem like that anymore. Honestly, I have no idea how to over come this or get it corrected. Perhaps me and Brandon are just scared for life from what happend on CSi. Thing is, if anyone has anything to add or say, please don't hold back. If Brandon or I are going to get flamed, let it happen. *Puts in flame suit and chucks Brandon one.* I would really like some honest replys here, and Andy, if you find this post to not fit here or offensive, its alright w/ me to move it, or bump it to the top and make it stickie. Whatever you people have to do or say, let it be done and heard.

To those of you who post either positive or negative feedback, thank you. Its glady accepted.

Once again, I'm not pissed at JDMU and I'm not trying to cause Drama, just simply stating how I feel as well. That should be gladly accepted. :tu:

Good day

*Tips hat*

[D1g1tal V3n0m]

Stephanie: I know you love me and you know I love you to you sweet sexy woman you. By the way Steph when you sign online I get this feeling.....*Pause* Like when my mullet is flapping in the wind.
By the way I have not talked to you in forever. I miss ya "hun"

Pogi: I know you and I have no probs you and are pretty much bros. But I am not bummed saddened or anything. I just get that feeling sometimes. But Pogi when I am talking to you I get this warm feeling inside.....*Pause*....Like right before I am about to pee in a pool. But you and I are cool and always will be. :bigok:

Jeremy pretty much summed up what I left out. The fact is I don't want some pity me or any of that senseless stuff. The fact is maybe it is just because this place has been slow or something but I do feel that way and I have for a while now. I don't know what it is maybe everyone is just jealous of my sexual prowess. But in all seriousness I doubt that anyone will flame this as I actually have never seen anyone flame anyone on this site. But I have no clue what brought my feeling this way on. Maybe it is just because I am tired and everything but I do feel like something is different or something. Maybe it is just me though.

[Edited on 11-18-2002 by D1g1tal V3n0m]

[pogiputi]

wow...ok...now we have problems...if you get a warm feeling from thinking of me........ GHEY:n4:

[D1g1tal V3n0m]

Not thinking of you you homo. Talking to you. :n4::n1: But don't get me wrong though not in a :moon: kinda way. And especially not a kinda way either. Just more of a you make me feel like a natural friend. That made no sense and I know your gonna say something back to me now. As always.

[pogiputi]

and quit peeing in the pool...it makes the water taste funny!!!!!:n1:

[D1g1tal V3n0m]

Notice how the seriousness in this thread is just shooting on down the ladder. But oh well let us end this senseless stuff and make way for the meaningful responses.

[Second2None]

You shouldn't feel that way, man. I think everyone on here is cool. Buck up ole chap!! :thumb2:

[pogiputi]

If you start to feel down...I would just take a peek at Second's avatar...it has cheered me right UP!

[Second2None]

Lol...Kelly Brook can cheer any guy up!!! :thumb2:

[D1g1tal V3n0m]

Personally I don't think that she is that hot. She is cute yes but smoking or anything....Not really. But that is just me I guess. Get me some pics of Jennifer Love Hewitt or Sarah Michelle Gellar and I would be alright. But I am not sad or anything actually. I am just kinda pissed off right now but hey what else is new.....

:curse: Woman

[PackRatTDI]

I used to dislike Brandon as much as I dislike moldy cheese and wiping my ass with sandpaper. But I decided to let the past be the past and start anew. So kwitcherbellyachin!

[Zubz]

maybe i dont read the boards enough...but honestly i have NO idea what you are referring to. about how you feel left out, and no one reads what you're writing?

if i have to think of any problem thats been going on with the site, and even that is tough to do...it would be the number of meaningless replies. look how your post turned into a discussion on girls, and you continued it in that direction. thats not a flame on anyone, just saying how it is.

i think you're reading WAY to deep into everything.